Corona

So my company (who a month or so ago sent us all an email boasting about our 60m+ profits for last year) have been getting back to me since Tuesday. They are just awaiting confirmation that this government loan will go through before they say how much money I'm to get as I can't do my job because of corona restrictions. LOL.


Fucking cheap cunts. Wouldn't even pay for 3 seats space around our MD when we paid to fly her back from her holibobs (TRUE STORY; HER ACTUAL REQUEST). Cheeeeaaaaaaap.

Feminism

K so for a long time I have rallied against Western feminism. What right do women have when women in the western world can still be, basically, legally raped*as i look as reservations*, I've muttered to myself. BUT. (and I know it's not the same). A little over a year ago I complained to my HR that by boss once (amongst a multitude of other things - shout out to every vegetarian that's been told they need some meat in them-) told me I was "lucky he didn't do something bad to me while blotto". At the time I told him he couldn't say that to staff. He scoffed. They did nothing. BUT I was allowed to change departments - a rare treat in my company. We were the other side of the office but still. I knew how rare of an honour this was so I was honestly grateful.

Shoot forwards 1 years 2 months. He's just moved to be backing on to me. Aparently this is O.K. companywise. That's one thing. But only one of my friends from this end of the office has stuck up for me on the subject. This is once of the most painful things I've lived. People I thought were friends are rolling their eyes at my opinion that women don't need to be spoken to like this. They're saying I'm not being professional. They're asking if I'm not their friend either because I didn't take a mint from them. Like I'm in the wrong for not writing this kind of thing off. He essentually threatened me. Do I think he'd ever rape or assult me, no? Do I think threatening me is okay, STILL FUCKING NO.

When he has been made to apoligise to me before (this has gone on about 7 years?!) he's said he was sorry I was offended by what he said. Not that what he said was offensive. How could he offend? He's a man and women are mean, evil, meaines.

I know a lot of women on this planet are assulted. That's honestly awful. But let's be honest. I'm here genuinely saying I'm lucky I was only threatened with violence; not presented with it. So let's take a good look at ourselves. I think it's generational. My friends in the office under 35ish *flipped* their*shit*. They went senior. Put complaints in as senior as they could. Said their hubbys could wait outside work for the guy. Older people that I called friends rolled their eyes at me. Looked exasperated that I'm not over it yet. Muttered that he's said he want's to be friends with me again and it was me being "difficult". Causing "problems". For wanting a mediocum of respect. I. Think. Not.


He now makes at least 2 gibes at me a day. 'I'll have this team soon too, you see. I'll be king of this team again soon'.\ 'Oh ho, isn't this funny, it's just hilarious! LOL!' etc. That's allowed. He's just being  the banter king. FFS how dare I think I shouldn't have to sit there and be goaded by a sad, old man all day. WHO DO I THINK I AM? I am so fucking unreasonable.

No-one on my team has spoken to me unless it's workwise for a week there now. I thought we were friends. I just sit in silence, listening to him. When he says stuff they all say nothing. sometimes they just laugh or gabber away with him. They don't say 'too far', 'give it a rest'. Nothing. Because clearly, I am at fault(!).

I AM allowed to be moved away from him though. As soon as he can move me. (f.y.i he's not in I.T. , it's not his job to move desks). When he decides that he has enough time he will move my desk away and not until. He laughingly said it won't be this week. Then he moved his own row of desks back slightly, played with lego and set up his new phone. I AM THE ARSEHOLE THOUGH.

I AM NOT IN THE WRONG. No-one can talk to us like this anymore. Thank FUCK we live in a new world. SOON no woman -regardless of social contructs or circumstance - will have to take this shit. Woman ARE equal and soon every man will not be able to question this. I've learned that women are our own enemies.

Came here to delete this but you know what I'm two years deep and this shiz is still flaggin on my radar so NO. Don't delete. He was just made my Team leader again because apparently grievances don't count for shit? Here for future reference. We don't have to take this shit. Hashtag Still Going Strong. It turns out the head of my H.R department thinks all of the above was not ok. Also, I hashtag got the last laugh.

OMG

Reading this sober is mortifying.

Uuuuuuugh

People everywhere still piss me off.

I got ghosted by an on/off "friend" of 1.5+ years. My reaction was to bleach my hair and crash diet until I'd lost 11 lbs. Did it re-attract his attention? No. Did I feel better? Actually, yes. Wrecked my hair, though. Literally. Would probably only recommend the 800 Kcal a weekday diet aspect of this demi-breakdown tbh.** (Brekkie: Coco shreddies, Lunch: snack cheese, 4 crackers, low cal crisps and maybe an apple, dinner: soup and 4 crackers diet plan. Actually not as hard to maintain as it sounds).

He's a douche but smarter than 90%+ of the people where I am so who am I to try and call the shots? Not my war to win. Correct use of an apostrophe is basically foreplay for me these days. I guess this is what pushing 30 feels like.

People are dumb where I'm from. "They emailed asking for an emailed copy of our forms. But there's no address on the case. What email address should I use?" THE ONE THEY FUCKING USED MAYBE?! MIGHT BE THEIR FUCKING EMAIL ADDRESS?! SINCE THEY ARE, YOU KNOW, USING IT. Fucking cretins.

Or the legendary line used once in my office: 'I can't use that machine (a desktop franking machine) I'M TOO TALL'. Too. Fucking. Tall.

I think I stay here 'cause it makes me feel smart.



**For a bit for a crash diet. Not long term. You can't do long term. Sooner or later someone will mention a chippy tea and. You. Will. Cave. (and it will be glorious; you will regret nothing).

Owl Lady

So I guess we can just about change this blog's name to 'absolute cunts I have known'. Would not be inaccurate.

I once knew a cunt. I could easily have loved him. I was infatuated. T'was not to be. Now I am sad (again).

Also, I work with an owled eyed cunt who keeps telling the youngest team member
(>10 years to me vs the < me vs the rest of the team) that SHE IS AMAZING AND EVERYONE IS IN AWE OF HER. Like  yah, 10 years between me and your opinion; 25 years between me and the actual age gaps but FUCK IT you feel young again so praise dat 19 y'o'.

Oh Internet

...Today some dumb thing with a wang made me cry. Internet, please make it better?


**Edit to add** I found this:

Good job internet. I knew you'd know what to do :D

Sooo...

Yah. One of my good friends is older than me. And getting low on eggs, to be frank. She's just turned into a massive cunt kind of overnight. Is this a thing?

She's so nasty suddenly. I went for lunch with a mate and she's all 'HE'S NOT A REAL MAN THOUGH?!?!?!'. Like, it's lunch not defending my feudal lands so s'all good. I gave stuff up for lent and she's like 'YOU'RE GOING TO PUT EVERYTHING BACK ON IN A DAY. IT WON'T WORK'. Maybe it's about the spiritual journey? (No, it was about losing weight but like fuck will I tell her that now.) I was going out with another friend so she said "I can think of nothing WORSE than going out with her". Really? 'Cause you seem pissed that you were not involved.* I said I like truffles so apparently I have developed 'LA DI DAH TASTES' and am a flash bitch? Like, they're not cheap but they are in no way unaffordable. Any unhappiness you have with your life is not my fault, stop going at me, I've not done anything?


*disclaimer - she is not friends with this friend so it's not like we've left her out.